it's really hard to have about 100 ppl coming for international dinner. then dropping to 5 ppl, 3 ppl to OCF meetings. we go there n we c the committee. then we can't do anything n we go back early. ok. initially it was ok. i could go back early n rest early. but somehow yest, it was just weird. like i'm thinking 2 myself. what am i doing here? what's my purpose here? there's nobody coming. so what's the point of going there? just to go there n c there's nobody there? i'm just feeling discouraged. there is no enthusiasm anymore. i can't b bothered to make a formal meeting anymore. i dunno......am i the only 1 who feel like that? y aren't the committee talking bout our drop in no? y aren't we doing stg? y isns't there stg we can do? y dun ppl come? r we just existing just for the sake of existing? i dunno anything anymore.

but i do thank God for 2 gurls who bravely stepped up to b leaders.