Col 4:2-6

COntinue steadfastly in prayer, being watchful in it with thanksgiving. At the same time, pray also for us, that God may open us a door for the world, to declare the mystery of Christ, on account of which I am in prison-that i may make it clear, which is how i ought to speak. Walk in wisdom toward outsiders, making the best use of the time. Let your speech always be gracious, seasoned with salt, so that u may know how u ought to answer each person.

nick was ending the study on col 2nite. n the main focus was on prayer. the jeez was that i wasn't praying God's will. I wasn't praying for any of the above what Paul was praying. I realised everytime i pray it's always bout me, me n me. My needs n my wants. It's like making God to be a genie who fulfills our wishes. n the thing is that if we pray for the things in the bible, the things that God said He'll do then that's good bcoz He'll do it as it's good.

anyway, it was a time for self examination. n 1) pray for the gospel to spread, 2) for christians to grow.

I am staying with 3 other non-christian flatmates. n what have i told them about the gospel? nothing. zero. n what did paul pray? He prayed for the purposes of God..that God will open doors for us to declare the mystery of God. n walk in wisdom, making the best use of the time. I haven't been in tune with anything above at all.

but at least now i still ahve another half a year to go. n i now know what to pray for. to not focus on myself but on God's purposes. thank God that i have the assurance that when i repent n say sorry, I am forgiven. thank God tat everytime i falll, God picks me up n i continue to walk again. somehow i feel a weight has been lifted off n i can breath again. thank God for His grace and mercy.