i forgot to post this up. we saw this poem in waihola during the oCf/vcf retreat. all of us tot it was really great. i think so too :) n i'm taking  a break from studying the brain n nerves..gosh it's killing me..n listening to music while blogging=good rest time... today as i went to the hosp 2 get my eyes checked. the doctor asked me in reponse to me saying studying is tough now" so did u think going into med would b easy?" n i was like "no...n in my heart( i didn't think it was gonna b this hard!!)" n he asked" do u have a conscience?" n i was like"yaa..." n he replied" so u r gonna suffer but u'll prob make a good doc". n i was hmmmmm...good doc? that's soo encouraging.. i really dun wanna b a bad doc. but at this rate studying my cranial nerves n pathways. n being 90% confused all the time. i dun know whether i'll get to the stage of good doctor.

anyway tat's beyond the point. the poem!

When i say i am a christian       
I'm not saying "i am saved"
I'm wihspering "i was lost"
that's why i choose this way

when i say i am a christian
I don't speak of this with pride
I'm confessing that i stumble
and need someone for my guide     

when i say i am a christian
I'm not trying to be strong
I'm professing that i am weak
and pray for strength to carry on

when i say i am a christian
I'm not claiming to be perfect
my flaws are all too visible but
God believe that i am worth it                                                   

when i say i am a christian
i still feel the sting of pain
i have my share of heartaches
that's y i speak His name                                                                        

when i say i am a christian 
i do not wish to judge
i haven't the authority
i only know i am loved

carol s wimmer

cool eh??

anyway, 2day at the doc. i didn't even know i was diagnosod with intraocular hypertension till 2day. i mean i i didn't know the medical term for "high pressure in the eyes". but the pressure which used 2 b like 20 ish above n that is high n damaging in the long term, is actually below 20 this time. n i was like wooah... wat happened? it's great news for me bcoz my eye sight will not b damaged. n in the long run won't get blind but wow..is this another blessing from God? cos i cna't c how it can just decrease?but i still gotta go back n do another test which will tell whether it's really down. but for now i'm just real happy :) thank u!!

n i'm going to kaikoura for a placement for a week! the place where it's real famous for whale watching! n i heard it's real beautiful:) but i won't go whale watching la.. too xpensive. i'll just take a photo with the kaikoura sign n yep i've been there haha. i never tot i'll get that place too tho. hehehe...i was just telling my mom that i'll love to go there. n i got it! hehe. so i have 2 stop over in chch to get the conencting bus the next day. so i can meet bomi!!! i've already booked her on june 15th hehe.

oh ya. n i actually told my mom i went to ocf retreat/camp! cos i talked to her on sun n i told her i wasn't in for the weekend. so she asked where n y? n i told her christian camp. n she didn't scold me or anything. she even asked me for more details... :) yay :) n i emailed her n tell her i'm going to mid year conference!she didn't email her response yet..but i think it's gonna b ok. i didn't have 2 lie the last time so i think it'll b ok this time. she's beginning 2 open up a bit so that's good. hope i'll b more open next time tooooo......God is at work..hehe

ok..gonna go sleep now..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz